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Playing Happiness

Every day I see people’s Instagram feed one by one. Every day I see their happiness through it.

However, is that happiness real?

For the first time of my life, I stopped being naïve and try to look beyond things. I’ve read a post in my LINE’s timeline about several personal disorders of Instagram users. Well it’s not serious illness, though, but trivial matters which change the way we live and see the world. The post said that most of Instagram users are addicted to posting, especially in Instagram Story. At first, I just thought it is human nature that we want to be acknowledged by others, but Instagram, in a way, makes people want to brag more about themselves. Of course, including me.

I have a friend from university who “maintains” her Instagram account very well. Whenever she is sad or happy, she always posts something positive about her in Instagram. On one hand, she “brands” her account successfully to inspire others. On the other hand, is she able to be honest with herself?

It’s kind of two sides of a coin, though.

I know maybe I am judging her way too much, but I think that most of people do these days.

Sometimes I see some people are competing through Instagram, such as how many prestigious events they have attended, how many beautiful places they’ve been to, or how many friends they’ve taken photo with. The world seems blurry. It’s so utopian.

People are happy. Everything is alright.

Though we can play our happiness—and that’s our rights too—, I don’t think we have to lie to ourselves anymore.

P.S It’s just an opinion, tho.


Hari ini, dalam puluhan detik kita berpapasan.

Hari ini aku bertemu kamu dengan jaket jins mu yang kusam itu.

“Kamu sombong,” kataku.

Lalu tak lama kemudian kita bergurau seperti biasa yang suka kita lakukan dulu.

Ada rasa hangat. Lalu hujan pun rasanya menjadi mentari cerah di angkasa.

Ku tembus hujan dengan rasa hangat memenuhi pipiku.

Ah, Yu.

Mengapa Ilmu Pengetahuan Dikatakan Berasal dari Barat?

Mengingat tentang Ilmu Pengetahuan, aku kembali mengingat pelajaran-pelajaran yang telah kuterima sejak sekolah dasar sampai sekolah menengah. Entah kenapa, rasanya aku merasa tidak mempelajari apa-apa selama 12 tahun berada di sekolah formal. Terasa hampa otak ini mengingat-ingat pelajaran sekolah dasar dulu. Tapi aku masih ingat pelajaran-pelajaran sekolah menengah, terutama Pendidikan Kewarganegaraan dan Ilmu Pengetahuan Alam. Aku juga nasih hapal beberapa tokoh seperti Montesquieu, Thomas Aquinas, Charles Darwin, dan Sigmund Freud. Tak kusangka tokoh-tokoh itu masih aku temui di bangku kuliah walaupun dengan catatan bahwa aku ini “anak sastra” Kok bisa?

Belajar filsafat .

Sejak aku ambil mata kuliah pengantar filsafat dan pemikiran modern, pandanganku tentang dunia berkembang dan wawasanku tentang ilmu pengetahuan itu sendiri pun meluas. Awalnya aku sempat parno, karena teman-temanku yang berada di jurusan filsafat mereka lama-lama menjadi agnostik (orang yang percaya bahwa keberadaan tuhan tidak bisa dijelaskan dengan akal, tapi mereka sangat berbeda dengan seorang atheis). Setelah menjalani perjalanan 1 semester, aku keasyikan belajar filsafat. Baca sejarahnya sampai tokoh-tokoh dan ideologi-ideologi yang dianut tokoh-tokoh itu. Sampai-sampai aku melupakan definisi dan hal-hal dasar sehingga nilai uts ku tidak memuaskan karena soal-soal yang keluar adalah soal-soal mendasar yang sayangnya aku lupakan.

Belajar filsafat juga membuatku mengenal sejarah dunia yang ku pelajari di mata kuliah sastra Inggris. Lagi, belajar filsafat sama sekali jauh dari ekspektasi burukku.

Semakin aku penasaran, akhirnya aku tahu mengapa hanya tokoh-tokoh Barat saja yang menghias buku pelajaran SD, SMP, SMA kita. Kita anggap sajalah bahwa ilmu pengetahuan mengenai filsafat, sains, pemerintahan, berasal dari Yunani. Lebih tepatnya lagi berkat Plato dan Aristoteles (mungkin Socrates tapi sayangnya Ia tidak menulis sejarahnya sendiri). Dua bapak filsuf itu menyumbang banyak sekali ilmu pengetahuan dengan tulisan-tulisannya. Di zaman Renaissance dan seterusnya (kebangkitan dan rindu kebudayaan Yunani) ide-ide dua bapak itu dipelajari kembali.

Setelah itu, lahirlah Thomas Aquinas yang “mengkristenkan” Aristoteles dan Plato. Mengapa? Karena ia ingin diterima oleh Gereja. Karena pada masa Dark Age atau kejayaannya gereja do zaman pertengahan segala ilmu pengetahun sangat diatir gereja. Descartes seorang filsuf kaya dengan slogan terkenalnya cogito ergo sum membaca kembali karya-karya Plato dan Aristoteles sehingga timbulah metode keraguannya yang terkenal. Dari situlah ilmuan-ilmuan Barat terkenal. Apalagi penemuan mesin cetak sangat membantu penyebaran sains meluas ke seluruh Eropa. Padahal jauh sebelum Thomas Aquinas, ilmuwan-ilmuwan Arab seperti Al-Farabi, Al-Khawarizmi, Ibnu Sina, telah menerjemahkan karya-karya Yunani ke bahasa Arab dan mempelajarinya. Anehnya, Thomas Aquinas sendiri tidak pernah bisa membaca bahasa Yunani. Aquinas memang perlu di interogasi atas hal ini.

Mungkin tulisan ini memang bias, tapi saya ingin mengatakan bahwa ilmuwan-ilmuwan Islam lah yang lebih dahulu melestarikan karya-karya Yunani dan mengimplementasikan ilmu-ilmu yang secara rahasia “dicuri” oleh ilmuwan Barat.
Taukah kamu bahwa Al-Khawarizmi yang menciptakan aljabar? Taukah kamu kalau Al-Farabi menciptakan not balok untuk pertama kali?

Jawaban anda adalah buktinya.

Let’s be Humanized!

Everything seems different in the third term in college. In this term, I learnt a lot about life lessons during the lectures. Because I was majoring science when I was in high school, I had never learnt about human studies, such as sociology or anthropology. However, now, I study culture, literature, and philosophy. Of course, it is because I’m a student of faculty of humanities. Somehow, by attending so many lectures that I took for this term, I began to think reflectively about us as human. Then one question appear: Are we machines or humans?

I’ve been wondering about this issue during this term. Maybe this is not what people think or most of students think these days, but suddenly the question appear in the middle of Research Methods class. The lecturer, Mr.Junaedi, said that we are modern people. We want everything fast, we want everything instant, we want do things with less effort, and we want to make everything to be practical and efficient. In addition, we also spend more time in the outdoor rather than in our houses. Now, we are busy with ourselves and pay less attention to our families. What do you think? Are those represents you?

For me, I am. Home is not like home anymore. Nowadays, home is just a dwelling not a house. Look at the apartments that are built around us. Houses are replaced by simple compartments whose price are high. Less windows, no terrace, no backyard, functional design, and all the elements of a house seem decreased.

Inevitable, in this millennium era invented technology becomes part of our life. Indirectly, internet and smartphones are our ‘God’ in everyday life. Most of modern people use smartphone to communicate and make our job done faster. In addition, there are many applications, such as social media and games are invented. However, those applications —unconsciously— are distracting us. For example, some people tend to care their cyber life rather than their real life. The more we get in touch in Internet make us isolated. As a result, we are likely to be machines without feeling. Like robots, even zombies.

By writing this journal, I don’t mean to preach or teach. I know that we as humans both have flaws and beauty in the same time.  Overall, I just want to say: Let’s be humanized!

Happy Days: Life Is Absurd

             Happy Days is not a happy play as the title said. For the first time reading it, I barely know what the play is about. It seems unreal and absurd. Then I read it for the second time, and I start to ‘steep’ into the story deeply.  Although there are a lot of unanswered questions and weird terms, I understand why this absurdity of the play can catch audience’ attention.

The absurd setting of the play grab my attention since the beginning of the play. Winnie, the protagonist, whose half body covered by mound in the middle of nowhere seems so happy with all stuff around the mound. In addition, there is also a hole where her husband, Willie, lives below her. There is no certain indicator when the night and day began or end because the sun never stops shining. It has to have meaning, of course. In my opinion, the mound that bury Winnie signifies Winnie’s age or her coming death. Winnie is 50 years old, so it can be concluded that she is in half of her life. That is why the mound imbedded up to her waist. Then in Act 2, the mound imbedded her until her neck. Make her difficult to grab something even to turn her head. Again, it signifies death. Winnie’s end life. Ironically, she distracts herself from it by talking to herself and her husband. Lanjutkan membaca Happy Days: Life Is Absurd

Interesting Symbols in “Desire Under the Elms”

When I first read the title Desire Under the Elms, I automatically highlighted the word ‘desire’. I predicted that this play tell about big passion and ambition. In my opinion, the Elm trees itself is a symbol of the play because it interestingly leads me to deeper meaning. Therefore, I want to highlight several symbols that are significant in play in my perspective.

The word ‘desire’ actually can represent each desire of several characters in the play. For instance, in Eben’s case, it can be a desire to take the farm and the house. In Simeon and Peter’s case, it represents their desire to go to California for having a better life because the gold was founded there. In addition, the desire itself also can represent lust between Eben and Abbie, and how they create the play so sensual and lustful.

In the beginning of the play, there is a description saying, “The sky above the roof is suffused with deep colors, the green of the elms glows, but the house is in shadow, seeming pale and washed out by contrast.” We can imagine that there are elm trees that cover the house, so the house is in shadow. This is why the title is ‘Desire Under the Elms’. It is because characters’ desires appeared under the elm trees, which is the farmhouse. Furthermore, the Elm itself also represent connotation. In my opinion, the Elm trees symbolize feminine quality or ‘goddess’ and somehow it related to both Abbie and Eben’s Mom. Through the play, Abbie has great feminine quality as a woman. She is so pretty and seductive; therefore, she can influence Ephraim and lure Eben at the same time. In Eben’s Mom case, she contribute to the play with Eben’s saying that she will be angry or she will haunt the whole house. Although, she does not directly involve, Eben’s saying about her portrays her big influence to Eben. She is also pictured like goddess who can hear Eben and Abbie’s conversation, and the only person who will remain in the house when everybody is gone form that farmhouse.

Another symbol is the stonewall that surround the farmhouse. It can symbolize how hard to live inside the farmhouse because Ephraim repetitively say “God is hard, not easy” in several scenes. He also said that he always feel lonely whenever he stay in the house. Another possibility is the stonewall represents a ‘cage’ that make the house is so remote. In fact, in the first part there is a description about Eben which say “Each day is a cage in which he finds himself trapped but inwardly unsubdued.”

The sky also play significant role in the play. In several scene, we can find that Eben and Ephraim are looking at the sky and always say the sky is pretty as if they are looking at something beyond it. It leads me to interpret that the sky can symbolize the possibility of future. I think this is the part which create dramatic irony while they always expected something good in the future, but we know that in the end their life is such miserable.

Overall, the symbols of the play have important role in creating the meaning of the play and enrich the dramatic irony of the play. No wonder, the tragedy is success.

the horizon rise

the galaxy amaze

I still the Star the farthest way



Sudden, the Sun wipe the tears

the Moon came up, embrassing me

as tight as the kiss

capture my Shine, Love mine


then he’s gone


It’s just a memory

and.. I still the Star the farthest way


Deep blue nebula storm,  ravage my shine

I turn red

No one came

and.. I still the Star the farthest way


I See Some Two-faced

I see some two faced–in the street

in the school, in the office, in a mall



I see some two faced–smile and cry

Both, like a coin, like a card

like North pole and the South.


I see some two-faced–snobbing

with their empty bag hanging

and rubber-made shoes “sparkling”


I see a two-faced– till I go to bed

Is that in the Mirror whom I see?