The Collisions: What happened and Unplanned Decisions

2019 will end in another month then 2020 emerges. It’s a bit scary to see time has an extraordinary ability to stretch that fast in my time frame. As usual, I always wrote a recap of what had happened in a year, and this is it.

Different from the previous 2018 recap, I’ll write this as a narrative. For me, 2019 has been a unique year since it’s my first year of my post-graduate experience. 2018 is all about me getting out of my university, but 2019 has been exciting yet confusing at the same time.

I take a look at my annual target written in 2018, and some of them are checked.  One of them sounds a bit cheesy: being a dedicated and loved teacher. Frankly, I didn’t feel that I’ve already succeeded to become one, but I’ve been trying. I know there are no perfect teachers in this world, but so far I’ve tried my best to take this role seriously and passionately as other teachers in many sides of the world have done.

In the beginning of the 2019, I didn’t expect to get an appraisal as one of the helpful staffs and received an honorable mention despite of my first year as a full time service teacher. It was an honour, yet a responsibility to bear for that names. In the middle of 2019, my previous supervisor suggested me to join a teacher competition, and somehow I made it to top 3 nationals. I was able to attend a national conference where my corporate’s leaders gather and experienced an unforgettable moments in Batam and Singapore. Bad news, I didn’t win as the teacher of the year, yet it was a great learning experience to participate as a newbie in front of national company leaders from around Indonesia. I’ve been always curious of being a leader in certain institution, and to receive such exposure I was extremely thrilled.

Besides my close friends were married and it’s hard to catch up with them, I also encountered new individuals and get to know them more. It was lonely, as it’s always adulting promised to be, but things are not as terrible as I thought.

Yet, all above was part of the bright side in 2019. The rest of what happened is a bit blurry and gloomy.