These days, I felt like the world is getting darker.
Frankly, I still consider myself as a positivist person who likes to see things from the bright side. As my profession demands me to persist my habit, it becomes my trait and way of thinking in perceiving life. Yet, this mindset that I considered nice revealed another hard truth I learned.
Apparently, this mindset sucks. Well, in certain ways.
As I became more sensible and aware of people’s perception, I can see those who are genuine or some are being nice only because they had to. It’s not that I’m a sincere person who can scan people’s sincerity in everything. I just became more aware that people are playing their masks strategically. That strategically.
I used to perceive that most of people around me are supportive and encouraging of what I’m doing and pursuing. Yes, people’s perception towards me matters since I have this strange inferiority complex. I used to be THAT innocent. I thought my parents are supporting me in terms of my career, or my friends respecting me of being a teacher instead of having a super-high salary job, or my coworkers encouraging me to win a competition. Nonetheless, they don’t. Continue reading Schadenfreude : Emerging Pleasure from Pain