Arsip Kategori: kontemplasi

What Makes Us Successful?

Lately, I’ve been told by my Aunt that our physical manner, such as the way we walk, our gesture, and our posture, determine our success in the future. Is that really so?

Of course, I’m not a successful person yet. Everyone has his/her definition about success it self, and I’m sure you guys have one too. Being successful can be being independent, and could do something you like and earn from it. However, being succesful for me means to be helpful for many people around me. I want to be helpful for others and I want my work could bring advantages for other people. That’s what I call a success. Therefore, communication is important in order me to gain my goal.

Moreover, lately I’ve met many different people, especially during my internship. For me, other people are our battleground that must we handle, whether they are kind or not. As I person who’s not good into interpersonal communication, I find it not easy to have good connection with others, but I think I’ve made it. Many people, though I’ve only met them for a day, started to recognize my name and of course myself. I think my superiors in my office recognized me well, too. Although I’m not “a famous friend”, but still I think I could manage to interact with others comfortably.

For me the way we treat others is very important in our society. We should treat other people just like how we want to be treated by others. That is the most important lesson that I’ve learned for past 6 months in 2018. You know, I wasn’t a sensible person, and I used to think of me, me, and myself. Now, I start to think differently. Because of what? When we treat other people nicely and they find it comfortable to interact with us, they’ll respect us as human. Although we may not carry the same opinion about something, the way we deliver it to other people define ourselves. When people start to recognize us, people acknowledge us. When people acknowledge us, they gave their respect, and maybe they may give some recommendations related to work or our interests.

That’s how it works.

I was told by my Aunt that I should fix the way I walk, my sitting posture, or even my standing posture, the way I eat, etc. However, as far as I concern, my acquaintances and friends don’t really bother by it. I mean, I could place myself so well whether I’m  with my frends, my superior, lecturers, or the elderly. For example, I could act like a moron in front of my friends, but trying to be as polite as possible in front of the elders. Of course, in front of my family too, I act differently.

So far, I’ve always been a person who always to improve myself in ever second I live in. But, to fix something that is already embodied in me, I cannot do that. I don’t want to be somebody else that I don’t know. I want to live as myself. Yeah, some people fake themselves tho, and I don’t wanna be one of them. We have each other’s mask in certain occassion, but that doesn’t mean to wear a mask which is the opposite of yourself.

In this millennial era, many people are judging. People spread hate easily. They usually hide between those keyboards/keypads and cursing with no mercy. This culture is not healthy for our mental state. So, we have to be tactful to filter other people’s judgments, or we ended up hating ourselves for the mistakes that we didn’t commit.

Human cannot be perfect. We can’t be. Back to the question above, do our physical manner influence our future success?

Not always.

I think what’s more crucial is to be the best of you in front of others without being someone you don’t know.

Some people may adore us, and some may hate us. It’s their choices, not our mistakes. In my view, by being the best of ourselves, the best people will also follow behind us.

P.S: Yeash, I’m talking gibberish. Sorry for that


Gak Punya Mimpi atau Cita-cita yang Pasti?

Halo! Kembali lagi bersama Fira.

Hari ini edisinya pakai bahasa Indonesia santai supaya bisa dipahami oleh semua kalangan termasuk adik-adik SMP atau SMA yang masih bingung memilih jurusan kedepannya. Mungkin tulisan ini akan membahas capaian-capaian apa yang aku dapetin selama ini, jadi mohon maaf apabila kesannya bragging atau menyombongkan diri, tapi sumpah bukan itu niatannya. Ini hanya sekedar berbagi saja.

Nah, di sini ada gak sih yang masih takut dengan masa depan? Bingung gatau mau kemana arah hidupnya? Mau ngambil jurusan apa?

Aku juga pernah mengalami hal seperti itu, malah mungkin masih. Cuma kadarnya gak terlalu intens kaya waktu SMA dulu.

Memang rasanya itu kaya.. hm.. i will describe it like floating. Ya, ngambang. Gatau gimana kedepannya. Kepala itu isinya sama keragu-raguan sama ketakutan yang sebenernya gak penting dan berlebihan. But, that’s okay. We have been there to take a little step higher. Jadi, gak usah khawatir bagi teman-teman yang masih bingung. Perasaan ini merupakan proses, jadi nikmati aja ya.

Sebenarnya, aku merasa beruntung karena dari kecil anaknya BM (Banyak Mau). Ingin jadi dokter lah, jadi insinyur lah, petani, sampai jadi pujangga. Dan pada akhirnya nyemplung ke jurusan Sastra Inggris. Mungkin semesta mengizinkanku menjadi pujangga?

Nah, bagaimana kalau teman-teman yang sama sekali gak kepikiran maunya apa, atau cita-citanya jadi apa? Pasti segalanya jadi serba tidak pasti, kan? Sebenernya, teman-teman gak usah terlalu overthinking kok.  Aku di sini gak akan maksa teman-teman untuk menemukan mimpi sesegera mungkin karena passion itu pasti akan tumbuh sendiri seiring dengan pengalaman-pengalaman yang teman-teman dapetin. Karena solusinya bener-bener sederhana. Mungkin ini akan terlihat klise, tapi menurutku make sense juga sih. Kuncinya yaitu: Lanjutkan membaca Gak Punya Mimpi atau Cita-cita yang Pasti?

Dari Agen Kecil Untuk Kugy Karmachameleon

Hai, Kugy.
Aku rindu kamu, laut, Neptunus, atau suara ombak yang merdu. Kapan kita bertemu?
Sudah lama rasanya dan aku ingin jadi agen lagi. Seperti biasa, Neptunus sedang memainkan hati kami lagi. Dan rasanya sikulus itu terus terjadi.

Aku tidak tahu, Gy. Apakah ini siklus yang sama, mirip, atau bahkan beda sama sekali. Yang aku tahu, aku ingin lari ke Timbuktu supaya semuanya jadi salju atau mungkin ke Pulau Seribu supaya jadi buih yang berdebur


Sebenarnya aku tahu, kau bukanlah Kugy. Kau hanyalah kreasi dari otak jenius Dewi Lestari dan menamakanmu ‘Kugy’. Tapi aku rindu! Aku rindu dengan kisahmu dan Keenan yang memiliki ratusan siklus yang manusiawi tapi ngilu di hati.

Lalu di mana aku sekarang? Pertanyaan itu menggedor-gedor kepala sampai pitak walau tak nampak.


Be Yourself Myth

“Just be yourself!”

We’ve heard that often, right? People sometimes keep telling us to be ourselves and not worry about other’s perception. They say to be the real ourselves to be successful or to be someone who is–let’s say–original. However, is that possible to be ourselves?

Do people allow us to do so? Do we allow ourselves to do so?

In fact, as humans we have norms as our social control. This fact leads that we cannot be anything we like in this world. Yes, because we are within the social system. Well, if you live inside the jungle alone only with the animals, you have to follow their rules.

In our life, we have been led by our surroundings to these that. For example, when we decide to take major in schools and universities, we are supported by our parents or friends. Ah, I knew. Some of you think that your decision is based on your willing, but still, those are influenced by your social life and your habits. What makes you have personal habits? Yup, your environment again.

When I was a teen, I believe in that “Be Yourself” myth. I struggled to be myself because I want to be a unique person unlike anybody else. But yeah, just like my previous post before about a quote in Despicable Me 3, “Sometimes in life, you want a unicorn, but you got a goat instead.” When I was in school, I tried to be someone just like I want. You know, being an A student  and sometimes a teacher’s pet. I don’t really like to hang out either. I spent my time with writing poems and fictions or reading books. I became a nerd who is not likrable by others. Even until now, I’m still that nerd who keeps being hated by her classmates. People called me “Ambis” as I was labelled ambitious by my friends. Then I started to hate myself for being “by myself” just like people told me.

You know, sometimes that “be yourself” thing is just a myth as a defense mechanism for some people who are very very strived to reach their dreams. 

In fact, by being ourselves, we have to risk ourselves to be hated by others, even by our closest people just like family and friends. AND, I feel that there is a time who urge me to be somebody else rather than be myself. You know why? Because it seems safer to be somebody else rather than BE OURSELVES.

This identity issue started to raise again in my fourth college year. I want to end my college life by doing anything I want first. I hate to finish my study early than others, but the reality demands me to finish my study early. 

You know, life is always like number 8. It has ‘curly’ side that seems too hard to go through. It has crossing path where we have to choose to be someone that represent ourselves the most and someone that we barely even knew.

At this point, I felt the universe gambles with us. Whether we are stronger than he was expected, or he was right.  (?)

The question mark still remain in my mind.

Despicable Me 3 dan Pesan Tersembunyi

Kemarin saya menonton film Despicable Me 3. Saya termasuk salah satu orang yang sangat menunggu-menunggu film ini sejak tahun lalu. Sebelum film ini rilis, saya sudah menonton trailernya dan sangat berharap banyak dari film ini. Daan…

film ini dibawah ekspektasi saya. Saya berharap film ini akan lebih seru dan lucu daripada seri-seri sebelumnya. Namun, saya pikir saya telah overrated film Despicable Me 3 ini. Lanjutkan membaca Despicable Me 3 dan Pesan Tersembunyi

Midnight Venting

These are those days when my self-esteem falls down as usual in my life pattern.

It is always like this.

I lost my passion. I lost my grip to write again. I lost..myself and the dream within it.

It is the time when I really need someone to hear my vent. My uneasiness. My worriness. My anger. My sadness. Even.. a lil bit happiness from watching some Korean drama episodes. Now, it takes only 2 minutes to 2 a.m. And I miss myself.

When I was busy with activities and my college routines I longed for holiday. To rest myself. To take time for writing any piece that I want to write.However, it was not as I expected back then. Things turned out to be messed. I turned to be messed up.  Lanjutkan membaca Midnight Venting

Who am I gonna be?

There is one thing ruining my mind these days. One thing makes my heart uneasy:

My future dream.

Who am I gonna be?

Is it lost? Where is it?


I keep asking for myself of what will I do in the future after I graduate from my undergraduate school. It is a bit confusing. Nah.

It is absolutely confusing!

Well, I am in my third year now—starting the final year actually—and I could’ve tried to graduate in the next term, but I decided to take 4-year-course. Is it sound stupid? At the first time, I thought so, but I realized that the matter is not about graduating sooner. Then, the question appears again:

Who am I gonna be?

Hmm.. I’m not exactly sure. I can be a teacher, I think. Besides, I am quite capable of it since I’ve attended several teaching training. But there is something missing in me when I’m thinking to be a teacher.

I want to produce something. A piece. A Literary work probably. But creating a piece is not easy as I’ve thought before. Producing a piece of work needs a period of time which is not short. Writing is a process. Writing needs so many revisions even for those famous author who are already experts.

On the one hand, I want to help people: by being a teacher. On the other hand, I want to create my workpiece: by being an author. Is there any possibilities of doing that?

Kepada seseorang yang entah dimana sedang duduknya, berdirinya, atau tidurnya

Teruntuk Calon Imam-ku,

Kepada seseorang yang entah dimana sedang duduknya, berdirinya, atau tidurnya. Aku tahu, atau mungkin aku sok tahu, tapi kita pasti bertemu ketika dimensi waktu sudah setuju mempertemukan kita.

Malam ini aku baru selesai menonton film Sabtu Bersama Bapak. Aku belum baca novelnya sehingga aku tidak tahu apa filmnya memang menyampaikan isi noverlnya tapi yang jelas ada beberapa pelajaran yang dapat aku ambil, yaitu sesuatu mengenai..

Pernikahan. Lanjutkan membaca Kepada seseorang yang entah dimana sedang duduknya, berdirinya, atau tidurnya